Here starts my journey to wholeness. I have less than 2 days left with my friends and family before I embark on the journey of a life time where i will quit smoking, detox from my meds, and best of all KILL the negative mind and be free of my eating disorder.
There is no relapse after this. I am committed to life and to getting it back and to living it once it's in front of me. In this blog I will likely journal my struggles and successes as I proceed through the program. It's not really a program, it's treatment, individual. I won't have anything to do with the other clients. It will be time to focus on me and creating new neural pathways in MY brain that eradicate the negative mind.
I look forward to a family, a job, children, animals, travelling, giving back...things i had mourned the loss of to my ED....no more. these things are in my future and I will be blessed with them as long as i walk through the hell ahead of me and come through the other side.
i hope to include pics of where i am and the people that influence me. i will have 24h support until i am ready to fight the negative mind myself. hey, a sitter i can actually talk to? this is new. i hope one day my children can look back at this blog and find hope, courage, strength, and love for themselves and others.
and i hope all the readers can gain strength or at least see living proof that being free is possible. because it is...and i will show you. :)
xoxoxo
jules
